Gross

Thanks for the congrats you guys!

Ugh. I feel so gross. Since today was supposed to be weigh in day, I decided for it to be an "off" day. So I've not ate the best. Well for dinner I decided to make Mexican food. I am so regretting it. I have got to learn that there are better ways to reward myself than to gorge myself on crap. Blech.

What do you guys do for yourselves for small rewards?

Right on!

I lost exactly 3 lbs this week! That means I'm down 9.8 lbs. I feel good. It's a small number but a huge accomplishment for me!

Oh, Life...you're so funny.

My husband lost his job yesterday. They "eliminated" his job. You know what gets me? When you quit an employer you're expected to give 2 weeks of notice so they can find a replacement, but oh ho ho, when they need to get rid of you, you're given no notice. They wait til the end of the day when you're clocking out to say, "Oh yea, by the way, you don't have a job anymore, here's the paperwork on that and yea, good luck with that."

Argh.

Anyway, things are going well on the weightloss front. I feel like I'm doing well this week. Sunday the scales will tell though!!

Hope everyone is having a great day!

Oh Cookie Monster. I feel the same way you do. I mean, cookies are now a "sometimes" treat? Blaspheme. I'm with ya buddy.

Today has been kind of a hard day. My kids have gone on some kind of vacation and there's these weird little devilish beings in their place. Weird. When they get like this I get all Cookie Monster-like and I wanna cram cookies, among other things, down my throat at lightning fast speeds. I went over my points by 5 or 6 but I did get in 30 minutes on my recumbant bike. Yay!

Oh. I went to McDonalds today. And I ordered and iced tea. Unsweetened. I mean, that's kind of like blaspheme too, isn't it? It seemed sacrilegious. Who goes to McDonalds and doesn't get a monster order of fries with a gigantic Coke? Psh. Me, that's who. These days anyway...

Week 2

It's the start of week two. Sometimes I look at the big picture and see how much I really have to lose and it becomes very discouraging. But other times, I see the light at the end of the tunnel and remember why I'm doing this. When you're battling not only losing weight, but an addiction to food a week seems like an eternity. Going into my second week I feel pretty good about this still. Before I started this time I really had a nice long talk with myself. I keep visualizing all my goals and all my rewards. I want to go out for my 30th birthday party and look good and feel good and not be embarrassed. I want to travel and not have to worry if I'm going to fit in the airplane seats. I want to live life to it's fullest and not be held back. It's a struggle, day to day to day, but in the end, it'll be worth it. I'm sure of it.

1st Weigh In

So today was my official first weigh-in. I lost 6.8 pounds!! I'm so excited! I hope this momentum and the losses continue. It's so easy to get discouraged.

Moving on...

Again and again.

It's 2009 and this is my year. I've started this journey too many times to count. I've learned how to do it more times than I'd care to admit. I've lost the same 15-30 lbs three times now, never losing any more than that, only gaining more than I've lost. I've hit 300. I've hit rock bottom. I know it's time. This isn't about looking good anymore, this is about saving me. Please follow me on my journey, keep me encouraged. I know I can do it.